Hate

Hate

Note 1: Please be aware this is one of my longer articles at 1,600 words.

Note 2: In case my memory of the 1960’s is poor, I invite my older brothers to read and share their own memories growing up in Kingsbury and then in Booker.)

As a child I would hear the words “Wog”, “Niger” and “Paki”. So far as I can remember those who uttered these words were not hateful people. I did not hear hatred in those words. What I heard was “white” people’s attempts to explain a strange happening.

I was born in a part of London where I do not remember seeing anyone who was not “white”. Oh, perhaps I better explain why I have “white” in quotes. I never saw myself as “white”. To me, a white person would have been very sickly or perhaps dead! Everyone I knew was flesh coloured. This flesh colour was one I can remember trying hard to recreate on a paint pallet. I remember a teacher telling me that I would need to include a tiny bit of green paint to get a true flesh colour.

At 6 years old, I did not seem to appreciate that we were all changing colour, going redder with exertion or embarrassment and more significantly becoming browner each summer as we spent a lot of time in the sunshine. No one I knew wore sunscreen. We knew that if we felt ourselves burning it was time to get out of the sun.

As a family, we moved to the outskirts of High Wycombe in January 1965. It was not long after this that my grandmother, pointing out of the bus window at a man who was almost certainly from the West Indies, told me, “That man is coloured. It is important we do not call these coloured people black.” That stuck with me. I did not think through where a dividing line might be.

Jumping forward many decades, I interviewed a man from Jamaica while working with the charity ‘Rethink Mental Health’. About a year later, at a London university, with a team planning a new project involving interviewing ethnic minorities, I blurted out, “I interviewed this coloured man…”. I did not get past those 5 words. A black researcher I had never met before was onto me, “like a ton of bricks”!

I honestly had no idea that the word, “coloured” that my grandmother had taught me was now banned. It was a terrible experience for me.

The only other experience, I can think of like this was while in a similar university planning meeting where several people had said, “non-binary” and I simply asked, “What does non-binary mean?”. Again it was that feeling of having a ton of bricks poured on me as I seemed to become the most hated person in the room for not knowing this phrase. I doubt that I was really being hated due to my ignorance but it felt that way.

I can appreciate that I never understood racism, sexism or perhaps many other –isms, until I started to feel part of an isolated minority. This was in 2021.

By 2018, I had met many people who had huge problems with injections. Okay, so, as likely as not, you approve of vaccinations, but please read on. Please try to understand me as a poor ‘white-niger’*.

( * ‘white-niger’ is a phrase I first heard in 1979 in the Elvis Costello song, “Oliver’s Army”, which more recently Elvis has explained was a common phrase to him with no racial connotations at the time of writing. )

In 2018, I attended a meeting called by the NHS about the provision of services for those with autism. There was no mention of injections/vaccinations during either the morning or afternoon sessions. It was over lunch that all but one parent there told me their child’s autism started immediately after an inoculation and they ‘knew’ it was the inoculation that had caused it. Now, there will be many causes of autism but I say about this as it was such an eye-opening because I never expected to find so many convinced by their experiences of the infamous link between inoculations and autism. Here it was 90+% of parents all in agreement. (I did not get to speak with the other parent so I do not know what she felt caused her son’s autism.)

I watched the film ‘Vaxed’ and many interviews with doctors who had worked on the links between inoculations and disabilities. The evidence of links is overwhelming as is the evidence that the ‘vaccine’ manufacturers spend a lot of money hiding the harms being done.

I have named this article, “Hate” as that is what I am now experiencing. Governments around the world have accepted pharmaceutical company money and are promoting the hatred of what they are terming, “anti-vaxxers”.

Now, all who tell of how a covid-injection has harmed them or their friends/family are being labelled by mainstream media and masses-of-hate-filled-people as “anti-vax”.

I am struggling to write this as my emotions are so strong. I never understood before how an ‘-ism’(might this be anti-vax-ism?) could impact emotional health that I would be considering suicide every day. I perhaps do not have any more desire to die than you do. In fact, I do not like the idea of pain and my belief that dying tends to go with pain puts me off suicide. Thoughts of how can I escape the anti-anti-vaxers are with me almost constantly.

I have moved out of my house many times since I started experiencing anti-vax-ism, staying in at least 5 different spare bedrooms in other towns. It is there though. It is all pervasive as it is promoted as normal and the way to be by the BBC and other mainstream media.

Now, if you believe in injections/ inoculations/vaccinations you may not be aware that NO ONE EVER CHOOSES TO BE “ANTI-VAX”. Please think about that. Being labelled as “ANTI-VAX” is like being labelled as “BLACK” or “COLOURED” or “WHITE”. We did not choose our colour at birth. We did not choose to be damaged by an injection. Please think this through. Where are the advantages of claiming to be ‘anti-vax’? Do you feel there is an ‘anti-vax’ community? If there is, I have not found it. Those the haters are calling anti-vax are ordinary folk who mostly believe in finding and sharing truths.

We may be anti-mask, anti-PCR test, anti-covid, anti-lies, anti-lockdown, yet we all get labelled anti-vax.

One week ago, a BBC reporter emailed me about one of the posters that has my email address at the bottom. It was being displayed in a window at The Greyhound Pub, near Henly-On-Thames. The reporter did not reply when I offered to let him have information about my poster. Instead, a news story was created about how the owner of the pub was failing to discriminate against the unvaxed.

I will say that again, “failing to discriminate”. Yes, the BBC is encouraging discrimination and in doing so encouraging hatred of millions of people who are unable to have inoculations on health grounds. The story appeared on BBC TV news, in newspapers, on facebook, twitter and so on.

How can I fight back against anti-vax-ism?

All those who have not had covid-injections are now living in fear as mandates are being enforced around the world. We have seen film of citizens being dragged from their homes and injected in the streets. Children are being held-down and injected. Over 57,000 are known to have died as a direct result of covid-injections. Yes, you may have received a placebo and feel safe, but what of those that governments want to dispose of. See hot batch EK9231 – Would you agree to have an injection from that batch?

I know so many who, like me, will rather die than be injected with what we know to be poisonous. Perhaps it is this that creates fear in those who hate us. How can we fight back? Weapons in our homes or do we go on the offensive by distributing The Light Newspaper and printing our own leaflets.

I have given out thousands of leaflets. Sadly a great many are torn up, thrust back at me or binned in front of my eyes. Even our local newspaper printed an article advising readers not to read leaflets that seem to be ‘anti-vax’. These particular leaflets were 100% government data from their own vaccine damage monitoring systems, yet local papers tend to be controlled by big businesses. Perhaps I need to spend time gaining an understanding of what can be printed and shared.

I am at a loss as to how to progress. Taking petrol to a vaccination centre? Well, I certainly would not be the first to use petrol in an attempted suicide to bring attention to the harms of vaccines. It is not working though as violence just creates greater division.

What would you do? If you are a firm believer in vaccinations and have developed hatred for those who have not had injections, how could you examine that hatred?

Can you understand that some of the over 2.1 million people who are now registered in government data bases as having been damaged by covid-injections in 2021 may be telling truths? Can you imagine for a moment that the people claiming to have been harmed by injections may be telling truths?

I am tired. Exhausted in part by knowing a brick could come through my window at any moment day-or-night. I have lived with this fear too long. I want out and death is one way out. I do not intend to go with a whimper being knelt on by some police or army man while another injects me. I need to keep up my strength up for that final fight.

Harms are www.realnotrare.com

If you need posters that may help explain the craziness of choosing to discriminate, I have funding to allow me to post copies to you. Please state clearly how many you need, your name and address. Thank you.